Saturday, April 21, 2007

Breaking the silence

Yes, I fell off the face of the earth. I need to rat on myself because a little honesty is what really makes the differnce when one wants to change certain aspects of their lives.

My weight is back to where it was originally. I'm walking more, I'm making better meal decisions ( trying to make better portion decisions) but I have to confess, my jelly bean addiction was hidden from this blog ( aside from the blatant spoonerism of my moniker). I have been compensating with HUGE quantities of gourmet jelly beans, quantities you can buy at a wholesale club. Everynight, while working on my other life crippling addiction, I'd have fistfulls of jelly beans while practicing chess. Zero-fat, no points Right? WRONG!

So from this day forward, let it be known... I, Sir Belly Jeans, am a recovering Jelly Bean Addict to which I admit my powerlessness. I surrender. Today I make a concious effort to stay away from the sugars of bunnies.

Thursday, March 8, 2007

Trending in the right direction

Its been a hectic time the past few weeks. Stressors at work and at home usually triggers me into adverse eating habits. I am still hanging in there and have resolved to keep it simple for my self. Learning how to not throw it all away while under fire is a big step. Some may regard it as a baby step but for me its a huge step. I'm still focused on making good food choices ( lower in fat and high in fiber) but have thrown out the point counting for the time being. I can say I make good choices about 80% of the time and try not to go over board during the peak. Its at the point now where its not "foreign" for me to make the right food choices. Having fatty foods has taken on the feel of "this is not right".

I need to increase my activity to the point its not "foreign". This is the next baby step I need to take. What I am really trying to do is change my lifestyle to healthier one. If it requires accounting.. and points and weighing food ...this is not going to work for me long term. I realize I have to make gradual changes that i can internalize. Then its a natural progression, one that I can sustain.

I want to thank you all for nudging and encouraging me. I am a tenacious person ( as seen in my other crippling addiction called chess). This is a great vehicle to keep track of my journey.

Oh, and I have gotten rid of 1.5 lbs. I am down to 248.5 lbs

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Sustaining..but no gain

I have lots of excuses as to why I haven't posted recently...but I at least wanted to keep my program honest by reporting where I am.

I haven't gained ...but I haven't gotten rid of any pounds either. I have been keeping an eye on my choices but I have not been excersing AT ALL. I know this is crucial in order for me to get beyonbd this plateau. Just do it... as the saying goes.

Belly Jeans

Monday, February 5, 2007

Excuses

Got rid of a pound and then I put it back on as of two days ago, I don't even want to look at teh scale... lost Motivation

Since my last post, I was real good about points and recording it all only to be discouraged with no results after a week. I saw my doctor in between and was told that this time of year its hard to lose because our body's metabolism slows down. The remedy is to exercise more. So what did I do, I exercised LESS!

Man! I am discourage. Work has been nuts and my lunch time routine has been fowled up because of deadlines. We've been in a deep freeze up here and I've been under tremendous stress. My way of dealing with stress, Food.

I know ... excuses excuses... I've got to get a handle on this. I am back to point counting but this weekend was really bad ( pizza.... and an old fashioned Sunday brunch...huge points).

I am so tired of fighting my inner battle.

Monday, January 22, 2007

Luck ran out

Grrr.

Found 3 pounds

Weight 250lbs.

I was counting points for 4 of the 3 days. I did have a birthday ... with cake (too much)... not enough walking inbetween. This may also be my body catching up with my "winging it" approach in the last 2 weeks.

You know, I thought I was doing better last week too... despite the cake on the B'day. I had even brought in a lean cuisine ( I call them lame cuisine)to work but found it not enough to satisfy this bear. mid afternoon I was grazing for more food... and someone brought in girl scout cookies. Please don't feed the bears.

I am back on track this week. No cake or girl scouts in sight. I am counting points and back to walking.

( Thanks for the nudge Kim)

Sunday, January 14, 2007

2 More pounds this Week!

Current Weight: 247.0 lbs
Weekly Loss : 2.0lbs
Total Loss: 7.6 lbs

More walks helped I think. I am still having a hard time writing the points down. This is a struggle. I got "lucky" this week. But I have to get honest and shoot for a better journal of the points.

Thursday, January 4, 2007

Week 6: Back on track

I managed to lose 1.5 pounds post Holiday food festivities.

Weight : 249.0
Weekly Loss : 1.5 lbs
Total loss 5.6 lbs

I've been walking a mile a day this week, but I have to admit to not counting points religiously. I've only been flying by instinct. I need to get back to the "routine" or I'll blow it.

It's tough. Like one day, at the tail end of my walk, I passed a sub shop and couldn't stop myself from having a hot pastrami... ( one of my weaknesses but high in points) ... that night I had a spaghetti squash spaghetti to compensate with LOTS of salad. I fogot about the temptations that come and the "voices" telling me which way to go or not go. Its a constant internal struggle. Blogging about it gets it out of my head.